Friday, August 19, 2011
i saw an advertisement about depression either today or yesterday on the train. talking about no motivation to do anything, etc. they all looked pretty familiar to me, i wonder if im suffering from it.
i dont know since when, i feel like this. all the more i dont know why. its like, i dont even bother about going into a relationship, why should i even bother. but the problem is, i dont even know if i like her. i really dont know.
depression, sigh.
i really feel like paying the school counsellor a visit.
today was oral. i thought i did quite ok, i got a strong feeling i got 11 for reading. but my overall is 29. not too good. oh well, everything is over.
had my haircut. slight mohawk. needs styling to get it out. oh damn, troublesome.
depression, again. =/
really, i dont like this feeling.
my heart is cold, im tired. i think its due to the treatment im getting. now im sitting at the back of the class, i cant feel the usual attention given by teachers previously. i dont know why.
i dont know if i can hit my target for o levels.
my parents dont understand. they dont understand that i will burnout if i were to max out now.
the ultimate goal is the o levels. but my gut feeling tells me that prelims is equally important, and i have to do well, so i have to study hard.
BUT
friends, teachers, telling me not to peak right now. im so in a dillemma. i dont know what to do. should i, or should i not? someone, please? someone really wise, someone who really can understand me. please?
i dont know since when, i feel like this. all the more i dont know why. its like, i dont even bother about going into a relationship, why should i even bother. but the problem is, i dont even know if i like her. i really dont know.
depression, sigh.
i really feel like paying the school counsellor a visit.
today was oral. i thought i did quite ok, i got a strong feeling i got 11 for reading. but my overall is 29. not too good. oh well, everything is over.
had my haircut. slight mohawk. needs styling to get it out. oh damn, troublesome.
depression, again. =/
really, i dont like this feeling.
my heart is cold, im tired. i think its due to the treatment im getting. now im sitting at the back of the class, i cant feel the usual attention given by teachers previously. i dont know why.
i dont know if i can hit my target for o levels.
my parents dont understand. they dont understand that i will burnout if i were to max out now.
the ultimate goal is the o levels. but my gut feeling tells me that prelims is equally important, and i have to do well, so i have to study hard.
BUT
friends, teachers, telling me not to peak right now. im so in a dillemma. i dont know what to do. should i, or should i not? someone, please? someone really wise, someone who really can understand me. please?
